"There were so many interesting parallels with my 10 years UBF experience."

When I read Steven Hassan's book (another ex Moonie)"Combatting Cult Mind Control", I found many parallels to UBF also. He described Sun Myung Moon as a short stocky Korean man who loved to watch Rocky movies with his top leaders and tell them how they needed to have Rocky's fighting spirit. He also tells how they used Genesis Ch. 22 to challenge him to "give up his Isaac" or something he really loved to do that conflicted with his spiritual life. In his case, it was his love for reading and writing poetry. He threw away all his poems, something he later regretted doing

Yes, Steven Hassan's book is a real "must read". It is much more systematical, explains mind control very well and gives advice how to get people out of cults. The book by Gordon Neufeld on the contrary is more of a personal experience (maby not even from an "average" member) and very subjective. Still, you easily recognize most of the mind control techniques in this book and how firmly they hold people in their grip. Plus, it gives you a deeper look into how the Moon cult really operates from an inside view. Hassan does not go into such a detail here and I think he has not been a Moonie for so long anyway. He also never underwent a Moon arranged marriage as Neufeld did. The description of the Moon arranged marraige procedure (the "matching", "blessing" etc.) was very interesting. I never read about that in such detail from an insider.

When I first visited the RSQUBF and EscapeUBF websites in August 2005, I saw that Peter Chang (the Ohio State UBF chapter leader during the 80s and 90s) had a letter posted on the EscapeUBF site in which he portrayed himself as a victim. Reading that letter enraged me because it revealed the hypocrisy with which he had governed the chapter. I was particularly upset by the section where he said he felt he was committing "moral suicide" by the practices he was forced to carry out. He neglected to say anything about the effect of moral murder those practices had for the chapter members upon whom they were forced!

I said that to say this: After reading Peter's letter, I began to write what I expected to be a 10- or 15-page letter confronting and denouncing him. I began writing it in September 2005. When I took a break from writing to go back to college in May 2006, my narrative had stopped at 126 handwritten, single-spaced pages. I'm almost at the point where the document is ready to edit - I think another 20 pages would allow me to finish writing the content and events I wanted to cover.

I hope to begin editing and revising the document during this summer and have something ready to post online later this year. I feel there is enough material for a book. Maybe, God willing, a book will grow out of my narrative.

Sounds great. In fact I also considered writing my own experience but the problem is that I have a pretty bad memory and thrown away most of my old sogams, lectures, conference programs etc. that could help me to get the chronology right. Anyway, I also plan to write something in one form or the other. I would be also glad to review your writing before you publish.

One thing that you should get across is that it was not the problem of a single leader (Peter Chang) but the problem of the whole group and its top leader that created, tolerated and even suported such abusive leaders. UBF may argue that Peter Chang is part of the "Reform"/CMI movement but it must become clear that he did all these things *before* he (allegedly) became a "reformer" and that he was not a singular case in UBF, but probably more or less a typical UBF leader (not even the most extreme one like Peter Chang in Bonn). Anyway I'm curious about reading your experience.